Friday, March 1, 2013 ; 11:09 PM
Am unhappy!
As usual life is nt a bed of roses I koe but can't it b a lil sweeter juz @ times?
I have made a decision for some time but something jux pull me back...
Giving it lots of patience and time, I forsee its time to move on....
By 16th march I sld have a firm decision...
Till then
Drops of kisses & love
Thursday, May 10, 2012 ; 12:28 AM
I miss u my irritating bf!!!!
Luv it when u took time out of ur busy schedule to entertain my crazy gfs, allowing them to disturb u as I do w/o complaining....
Life's wonderful!!!
Luving it lots.....
Drops of kisses & love
Wednesday, February 29, 2012 ; 11:20 PM
Dun worry ppl, am nt dead yet...Still alive and kicking thou.....
How i miss those blogging times when everything was so active....
Haf decided to be back to rant and grumble non stop.....
It feels suffocating at times when u juz can't rant and complain coz tongues will talk when u comment in fb etc.....*sickening* thou
Juz did an impulse buying.....*faint* when e hell will finish those two bottles of essense
Oki am heading to bed 1st.....*nitez*
Drops of kisses & love
Monday, June 27, 2011 ; 2:27 PM
Am freaking in great agony...
There shouldn't be a start in the 1st place when there's no ending...
and there i was being silly and gullible to jump into the trap....
Makes me wonder was it bcoz u're being hurt beforehand and there all u need was some1 to divert ur sorrows to another direction...and there's why during the initial part when i was reminded tat i'll be hurt before all gets started....
this sentence seems simple where i din think much of it....all i had was to love when the feeling's rite and giving it the best shot till the end...
Whereas things were not as simple as it seems....
plans had been plotted long time ago while i was still in my naive ideas everything looks fine and i dun sense anything amiss till it the last part that was beyond salvage did i realise something was bothering u.....
After 2 yrs of my wasted time and youth did i realised i was not being loved totally or maybe partially and could even be nothing...
Rite from the start it these meaning of e way u describe " Hurt" was this way those feelings of your's sld be controlled and nt let it made known in the 1st plc....Neither was it short or long for these years but it's potion enuf to shattered me....
To sum up, it was such a shameful, disgusting and selfish act......
things were clear and u koe wat u wanted and there i was shelved to one corner like an expired can food to be disposed of...
That's when it hurts me totally deep rite into my heart where i could really sense the heartache giving me sleepless nites and yet the hunger came followed by gastric attack i'm just unable to force food down my throat.....
u're a totally selfish jerk JACKSON SIM!!!!! coz all rite from the start was just you urself and how to make urself feels better.....one simple word u din love me enuf to care how i felt and my feelings!
Why can't i haf a normal r/s?
and when i went to the doc tis noon for my gastric which was bugging me for one week plus, even the doc was super nice and listen to my stories and in the end i was even 3 days of mc for a damn good rest...
In order to slp better, asked for sleeping pills to guide me real gd slp w/o having to think much...
funniest part was the 1st mc din have any diagnosis and where the doc wrote privately on her comments anixiety hahaha....and when the nurse was dispensing medications to me, she mention those sleeping pills were not covered under co.
she looked ard and spoke to me real soft before revealing the diagnosis of the doc and i guess she thout i was mentally not rite....she thout it was p & c nt to reveal the real diagnosis....
i thout for tat instant yups true i was not metally rite nw.........
am sure at the other side tat some1 had let down a sense of relieve enjoying life to the fullest...good to u then coz what comes ard goes ard like a cycle...i believe there's karma
why am i nth and so insignificant to others in e end?
Drops of kisses & love
Monday, May 2, 2011 ; 12:20 PM
i luv long weekends....
some random pics with Jean over at holland.v coffee club on a quiet mon....
And i gt Guerlain loose powder in lavender which contains simmering pearl powders within...
It jus feels so light on the face and a matte lasting look for a whole dae out...
And yes i saw the biggest chinese mushroom ever seen which sweetheart's parents gt bck frm their China trip...
Lots bigger then my fist thou....
Since the parents were out ydae for some pre mother's day dinner celebration, i whip up some black pepper striploin steak accompanied by german cheese sausauge and asparagus fried in sambal...
A perfect meal round up with glasses of red is simply lovely...
8 weeks more to go before i can stop asking can i dun go to work *muahahaha*
Drops of kisses & love
Monday, April 25, 2011 ; 3:35 PM
A busy April coming to an end and it's May sooon....
My graduation on the 1st week of april and finally i bid goodbye to UOL, no more late nites out over at Mac anymore *muahahahah*
Unable to make their presence, my dear gfs wenn and miao gt me a great big nice bouquet of sunflowers delivered to my hse by wenn as i cancelled our dinner date....was on mc the previous thou
Followed by the 2nd week was muye's big day where we were kept busy during the weekends shopping for flowers and last min stuffs....
All the busyness ended on mon...
It was nice working jus 4 days per week on april and time passes even faster thou...
On Easter sunday, had a nice bottle of red with sweetheart over at Mohd Sultan while he had his order of rib eye steak,i enjoyed my glasses and glasses of wine *slurpz*
Without failed, always tat greedy glutton look whenever his fav food is served* muahahaha*some1 pulled a face when i forbid him to start his food before photo is taken...
Took a short rest back at his plc and we went out like close to 2am to Henderson wave....weird timing thou and it was still pretty packed and crowded even at the time we reached...
The funniest thing was tat we were playing some girlie games he installed on his phone for me
till we're flooded with non-stop yawnings before we end the nite...
Can't wait to see my best gf ltr on......
Drops of kisses & love
Sunday, April 3, 2011 ; 10:20 PM
Coz the weather been rather cranky and humid, am gng to use higher Spf sunblock which comes with anti-pollution.....pile up lotsa facial mask
Hate tat it's a mon tmr....
all i wan is for July's getaway....
After the whole nite, i've realise that
The only way to make oneself feels better is to not to be too hard on themself, let what comes may.....
let me be a happier gal each dae......
Drops of kisses & love
And i gt Guerlain loose powder in lavender which contains simmering pearl powders within...
It jus feels so light on the face and a matte lasting look for a whole dae out...
Since the parents were out ydae for some pre mother's day dinner celebration, i whip up some black pepper striploin steak accompanied by german cheese sausauge and asparagus fried in sambal...
A perfect meal round up with glasses of red is simply lovely...
Unable to make their presence, my dear gfs wenn and miao gt me a great big nice bouquet of sunflowers delivered to my hse by wenn as i cancelled our dinner date....was on mc the previous thou
Followed by the 2nd week was muye's big day where we were kept busy during the weekends shopping for flowers and last min stuffs....
It was nice working jus 4 days per week on april and time passes even faster thou...
Without failed, always tat greedy glutton look whenever his fav food is served* muahahaha*some1 pulled a face when i forbid him to start his food before photo is taken...
Took a short rest back at his plc and we went out like close to 2am to Henderson wave....weird timing thou and it was still pretty packed and crowded even at the time we reached...
Can't wait to see my best gf ltr on......
Hate tat it's a mon tmr....